Wednesday, January 27, 2010, 11:42 PM
To _,
I'm glad you do not know my blog.
To hear those words from your mouth,
it was devastating.
The only thing that went through my mind was " Not again. Not another friend of mine. Going to be taken from my circle of friends and into the grasp of death."
This isn't the first time.
How many times have I wished that it would stop.
But it does not work that way does it?
I really hope, really really hope.
That it would be good news.
And that you would be okay.
Please.
Be okay.
You may be annoying and all.
But you are still my friend nonetheless and have in some ways or another.
Did help me before.
Good luck.
and for some reason im pissed now.
wished you would say earlier instead of waiting until the last moment.
why does everyone treat me like im some super robot.
because im not.
i have my breaking points.
my limitations.
everything is the same as you guys.
im as humanly functioned as you guys.
no mood.
just leave me alone.
crying to sleep
that will be the only way
the only way to lure myself into the numbing sensation
i don't wish to seek consolation
grieviance and what shit
i will deal with it on my own
