Sunday, January 3, 2010, 2:38 PM
I am going to be 18 in another 9hours plus more.
but what i feel right now is just one thing.
i feel fucking sad.
last year was one of the worst years ever.
everything that happened were mostly bad.
i know that everything happens for a reason.
but at least 5 of those things,
those were without a reason.
no, there was a reason.
it was me.
i am stupid.
turning 18 and i'm still as stupid as ever.
i haven't changed a bit.
everyone tells me.
change or get hurt.
i can't change.
but that doesn't mean that i want to get hurt.
i am sick of it.
betrayal, loss of trust, backstabbing,.. everything.
i am sick of it.
i am not just doll for you to play with.
as if that isn't bad enough.
3days ago you came back with your nonsense.
everything is over, why do you keep bringing it back?
i have had enough of it.
i can't tell anyone about you.
because those that knows you, they are no longer people i keep in contact with.
because of your stories, i came out as the bad one.
because of you, i have suffered for this past year.
enough of your nonsense.
i can't take it anymore.
but tmr will mark a new start.
i swear i will forget everything about you.
you can no longer hurt me like you used to.
because you are nothing.
NOTHING.
fuck off and get a life.
or i swear.
i will make your life not even worth living.
i will open my mouth and personally ask them to get rid of you from my life forever.
just ate finished lunch and came home.
having problem with game design.
because the template provided is 22pages long while the project is not supposed to exceed 5 pages.
but come to think of it, MSG seemed to have said something like,
it's not supposed to be a game report.
thus, i have no idea what to do anymore.
later, dinner at downtown east.
lol.
