Monday, December 7, 2009, 11:16 PM
Today went school.
Met him, lt, law, joce, Hh and some other people.
Then after their papers, went go drink bubbletea?
Then took bus home with lt and joce but they obviously alight first.
After that, stone all the way back to inter.
Went to meet some people after that.
Then went home.
Had a lot of time to think today.
I realised that just because people think we're okay on the surface.
Doesn't really mean that we are okay.
Lol lt,
If i didn't say it out to you, would you know that things are actually not what it seems to be?
I hate that feeling of disappointment all the time.
I don't know whether I'm regretting either.
But I know, I wish you would stop hurting me like that.
To tell you the truth, I'm trying to create a barrier.
A barrier to protect myself from this sort of hurt.
Hurt caused by disappointment.
Exactly, what should I say?
When people ask for my opinions.
I don't speak my mind.
Because I always think for the other parties.
Not myself.
I wish I have gotten used to this sort of hurt.
Then maybe, things would be better.
And I would stop being so reckless.
But I have not.
I can't seem to get used to it.
I just can't.
Everyone of them agrees with me.
And I thought, it was my fault to begin with.
Ironically, it's not.
Just stop hurting me in that way anymore.
Please?
Also decided.
Within this 2weeks of holiday, I'm going to chiong back piano.
